Raining the eyes

Lau lam roi moi vua di duong vua khoc.  Minh cung chi giong nhu moi nguoi thoi, chi hi vong nhung dieu tot dep se den voi minh, va luon co gang de co cuoc song tot dep ay, thuc hien nhung dieu minh muon lam. Co gi qua dang dau nhi, minh cung da co gang day chu, tai sao cuoi cung thi van nam trong so nhung nguoi khong may man, ong troi van muon tuoc di hanh phuc cua minh?

Ngay hom nay, den Benh vien, noi chuyen voi bac sy, toi thuc su thay nan qua. Khon, co le khong han la nan ma thay buon, thay tu thuong minh va me minh, va gia dinh nho cua minh. Toi khong the tuong tuong duoc tu mot gia dinh hanh phuc ngay nao, bay gio con 2 nguoi, va den 1 luc nao do dang rap rinh, se chi con lai co minh toi. Khong the nghi gi them duoc nua, khong the nghi chuyen gi khac duoc nua.

Toi luon lo so va bi am anh boi su co don, boi cam giac khi ma nhung nguoi minh yeu thuong, nhung nguoi minh khong the song thieu duoc, roi xa minh mai mai.  Am anh boi su bat luc, khong biet lam the nao de chien thang, de giu moi nguoi lai. Tinh than chien thang tu Bo toi luon co gang nang cao, nhung Bo oi, con biet lam the nao bay gio, khi ma ke thu cu cang ngay cang manh, con khong biet lam the nao de chien thang, con thay minh bat luc.

5 nam truoc la luc ban be deu dang lo lang chuan bi thi DHoc, toi chim trong dau kho tang toc cung cap sach but di thi. 5 nam sau, ban be chuan bi thi tot nghiep, lam luan van, tim viec lam. Va toi lai cung viet luan van giong moi nguoi cung voi noi lo lang, am anh voi su khong may cua nha minh, cua me minh. That la trung hop. Bay gio that can su dut khoat, quyet doan nhung ban than minh sao cu yeu duoi, nhu nhuoc qua vay. TU BO TAT CA THOI!  Toi se nghi lam, chac chan la nhu vay. Met moi qua roi, khong ai  vach duong huong cho minh duoc nua roi, tu minh fai dam lao vao ma theo thoi, dung cung dc, sai cung duoc, cung lam la chet. Bay gio lai thay khong con cai gi quan trong hon duoc nua, ngoai mang song cua ban than minh va suc khoe cung nhu cuoc song cua Me minh.

Such a long day.

~ by gamsmell on October 27, 2005.

3 Responses to “Raining the eyes”

  1. Don’t know what to say to make you feel better, just quote the lyric again: “Đừng tuyệt vọng, tôi ơi đừng tuyệt vọng”

  2. Gam’ oi, bac’ khoe khong ? … Noi chuyen voi to di !

  3. Chao` ban, minh vo tinh vao doc Blog cua ban qua nhung duong link tu nhung Blog khac cua ban minh🙂 Minh xin mao muoi gui toi ban loi chuc toi suc khoe cua ban, cua me ban va gia dinh, gui toi ban loi chuc ve tinh than de dat duoc nhung muc dich va tiep tuc con duong tuong lai cua minh🙂 Chuc ban may man va vung tin… “Tiep Tuc hoac Khong Bao Gio Tu Bo”

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